Saturday, May 23, 2009
I HAVE SHIFTED TO,
http://instinctivechronicles.blogspot.com/
It's okay if people don't relink me, i know it's irritating that i keep changing blog/ link.
(:
Saw sis at yishun mrt when she's coming bck, so she acc me go nyp sao draw keys.
Didn't go sch today. 1 week in a row, 3 days didnt go sch.
Didn't present, is a confirm that i will fail. I don't know wtf am i thinking now.
No, i am not okay.
Blog later :)
Friday, May 22, 2009
WHAT SHOULD SHE DO NOW?
SHE DON'T KNOW.
SHE'S STUCKED, SOMEWHERE SOMEWHERE.
SHE'S LOST, IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE.
I think sooner or later she can get depression.
I think sooner or later she will feel like giving up everything she have.
Lost.
I'm scared.
of school. of everything i have.
哭不出來。
不想說話但卻恨希望會有人了解，會有人問我。
I am so scared, so scared.......
FUCK EVERYTHING I HAVE.
I don't want anything now.
I know my friends are all dissapointed in me.
Lecturers dissapointed in me.
Everyone is dissapointed in me now.
Right now, i feel so useless.
I don't know what else can i do now.
Each time i tell myself this will be the last time i am giving up, i felt that bit of... inside.
All of 'em ask me to think carefully, do just a simple one.
Think again, if i do a simple one it just means i am not even putting in any effort.
I will be just doing with the ANYHOW DO MOOD.
And with that, you ask me to present with that?!
Mr YT will sure cirtisize me like fuck.
He said before, if you anyhow do yr work or keynote might as well we don't do/ present.
See? Understand? That's is why, partially.
I myself, always feel if i am not happy with the work i am doing and if i anyhow do, what's the use of presenting? I am presenting something that will throw my own face.
I know, alot of people will sure be thinking,
WHAT IF I AM FOREVER NOT HAPPY WITH MY WORK? THEN, FOREVER WON'T PRESENT?
I know.
I .. am lost too.
I also don't know what to say about myself now.
I know i am useless, i know i am.
I AM, i just admit. I admit now.
Why can't i do something i like?
Can't i? Why am i doing something i don't like?
I am stucked, i know i am stucked and i have no choice.
Why do i feel like i am in the middle of nowhere and nobody wants to care about me anymore?
Why do i keep feeling like i'm alone now when i am actually not?
When do i feel like nobody wants to help me anymore when actually there's still someone?
I don't know, i really don't know.
How. How. How.
Feels like living in hell now.
I don't feel like talking at all.
):
Thursday, May 21, 2009
AE don't like me, it keeps giving me problems.
I am super fucking fedup.
This will be the last time i am givingup.
Please yiling... Wakeup.
Ain't you always saying be grateful with what you have?
Why ain't you cherishing the chance of able to study in a course compared to other people to other countries? Why? WAKEUP WAKEUP. Fuck.
I cut my hair.
Ms sherlyn's message was dah boom to every one of us.
Ms sherlyn sent the message saying that friday is our presentation(9.30am) & we would have to copy our files into the lappy by thurs 9pm. No lateness is allowed.
Everyone thought it was 1.30 pm-presentation & in the past we always go to school in the morning to put secretly before 9.30 am when we couldn't finish in time.
You can see in msn, everyone's msn nick change once ms sherlyn sent the message.
I think, i can't finish already. Fuck everything.
My eyes are itchy and painful now. So dry and i am having migraine again at the wrong timing.
How nice >:
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
omg, i feel like gng t oschool again.
sorry, so random.
....i guess is bec lecturers want us to rush our proj at home.
Wokeup at 2pm plus with headache.
Still feeling very tired & sleepy even after more then 10hours of sleep.
Need too much of sleep, i think 20 hrs is not even enough to replenish what i've lost.
Wasted 2 days when i can actually do my work & sch journal.
No motivation, no nothing. How ):
不该在原地徘徊.
Sleep. Sleep. Sleep.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
No time, no money, no nothing.
Yet, i am dreaming of learning way too much of things i had in mind.
Thinking, too much.
I need motivation, i need time, i need money & i need hugs.
So long, or ...no one ever call me that, not even my parents.
I feel happy when somebody call me that.
要忘了梦，並不簡單.
BY2 :) Like the one with bangs, she dance hiphop so well.
Anyway.
Went aunt's house after school to celebrate cousin's birthday.
Went aunt's house after school to celebrate cousin's birthday.
Chiong to northpoint to choose present.
I totally wack one lah, anyhow choose then chiong bck home to wrap.
We ate ice cream cake. & I ate like 5 or 6 pieces? && PIZZA!
So back to my previous post, i was having mr steph's lesson.
& then i was too tired that i couldn't concentrate. PLUS.
Mr steph's lesson is fugging boring! He's like so comprehensive.
THEN, I went to facebook.
I JUST CLICK AND TYPE THE WEBSITE ONLY, MR YANGTIEN CAME IN.
WTF, then i quickly close the window and of course he saw.
He walk pass me and use his paper to piak my head lor.
Wtf. Go and die lah. I was like, ASIF I AM THE ONLY ONE NT LISTENING.
I am pretty sure some of my classmates went facebook to play during lessons too.
I swear, I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE.
Fuck, he BIG so?
I DON'T LIKE PEOPLE PIAK MY HEAD. YOU KNOW.
is like, some poeple don't like people touching their hair or what those kind.
I hate people who beat my head one lor.
So people, don't ever try to smack my head with whatever things you want to use.
I don't care who is the one who smack my head okay seriously.
SICKENING PIECE OF SHIT.
Somemore, is FUCKING _______ who piak leh wth!
Don't like means don't like. FUCKING _______ GO AND DIE :)
I already got no motivation to do my integraded assignment and now?
Thinking of fucking ____ will appear during the presentation..
TOTALLY SPOIL MY MOOD. The more i don't feel like doing. FUCKER.
I am feeling so damm stress can?! I think sooner or later i will get depression. lol.
Enough of these, i need just a cup of freezing coldddddddddd water.
In the morning before this lesson was modern pop culture.
We are going to work with baybeats bands. Cool eh?
Actually that kind of music, i don't really listen.
But i guess during this proj, yeah.. Need to get use to it.
Then we're doing about fads and fashion today.
Kind of.. Interesting? :/ HAHAHA :/
Talking about the fashion's history right form the start when fashion trend started till now.
Okay, i am gonna rest first before starting on my work.
VERY PISSED WITH SCHOOL.
i like these! so nice loh. I want to get those kind of shiny half jacket ):
And i frigging want a black or white plain jacket.
In class now, mr steph's lesson.
Yuck :/ I catch no ball so here blogging ):
He's teaching like asif we're robots.
Irritating.
Irritating.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Monday's always a long day for me in school.
8.30am lesson to 5 pm plus.
Then 6 pm to 10 pm plus dance.
I just got back home nt long.
Now is 12 am sharp.
Back from dance, & my muscles are aching like shit lah.
Not bec of today's dance, is bec of that day's dance conditioning.
Omg, frigging effective .____.
Although it's pain, but when you sweat during the conditioning is damm shiok :/
I want to go to wednesday's conditioning! Or gym they going?
Everytime they go, i that day also not free one ):
& there's what, mr gupson invite us to perform at his studio next friday?
But i cannot lor ): Now must put studies first alrdy lol :/ Kidding. But yah lah.
I'm having cramps now :/ & I just ate a pack of free rice after dance.
Back home, i ate magi mee though i am actually still damm full.
&& plus i finish up my jelly beans! :D Super nice okay!
I and jasmine cn eat like almost all finish within half an hr.
One person each pack hor listen. lol.
Okay, gonna do work later.
Don't feel like, i feel like writting my school's journal.
I haven't write a single at all since 24 april.
If it's to record down everyday life then easy lah but is not!
We must record things which is..
interesting.
Everytime it's like this.
I don't like. I really dislike that feeling.
When?
Sunday, May 17, 2009
My arms, tighs, buttocks and neck hurts. Muslce aches like fuck.
Michelle meet me after my church today.
& i do treasure our friendship :)
We went to my goddaughter's house, then i passed her the muffins.
I have to go church for every saturday night and sunday.
Going church for saturday too starting from this following week.
Sat's one is with the youngsters, sunday's one is everyone together.
Dance in school for 2 days, church for 2 days, other days schooling and lessons ):
Once school starts, i am like sold to school. Saddening.
Thinking of those never ending work, make me frigging no mood.
I just want to do the things i like for the rest of my life starting from now.
Why can't i?
I like By2 :)
I like the one with bangs.
Lady GaGa - Love Game -
Saturday, May 16, 2009
I know i look so cui after a day of dance conditioning and w/o any makeup.
& Can you see my pimples?
Thanks michelle for this ! My belated present. Made muffins for her (:
Everytime we wna meetup, it's ALWAYS me who can't make it. I apologise ): Really.
It's a hello kitty bottle, the necklace & the wear at wrist one.
Its the one i like at cwp! & she found it lah.
I still rmb when michelle came to nyp to watch me when i had performance (:
Can't find this type of friend :/ lol. Heh.
& Another keychain was given by tiffany, thanks too :)
Dance's conditioning today was omfg.
Then aft tht had techique class by weilin.
I didn't have the mood to dance after lunch.
Cause, My aunt are all at malayisa & mum's sick.
They ask me to come back early to acc my mum.
& that, my grandma's alone taking care of my niece, asking me to go back early to help.
&&& THEN, my sec sch friends( michelleong, yuwei, & tiffany)..
they came nyp to find me,
& I am super sorry to let 'em wait for me for like 3 hrs.
I felt so dissapointed w myself cause everything i couldn't make it like that.
I am like a robot today man.
Looking at so many children makes my day though.
But i made muffins at cousin's house at night just now :D
Blueberry & chocolate muffins. As well as chocolate cookies though it's like soft :/
Muffins Muffins!
Meeting michelle tomorrow after church. She's coming to see feline :D
I want to make pretty food.
& My life's in a mess now, i guess.
Friday, May 15, 2009
I. Rock. You. Rock.
Pop art eh? .____.
I gave them my balls. lol.
randy's one in yellow. & guixin's in red :)
They're like playing with balls in class studio! Funny anot :)
Tmd :/ Make me so stress ytd & didn't really sleep too doing.
Wtf. Lol. But okay, it's a bad & good news to me.
I realise being a secretary, hp can burst. LOL kidding.
Anyway went sao today with hazel.
Then wah konrad & the officer funny loh -.- Lame.
Saw my aunt, agnes too.
Nothing is impossible, it's just a matter of whether you want it or not.
I am not someone who forgets unhappy things easily.
Hello. Goodbye.
Cca comm meeting just now at mac.
Before that was having mr steve's AE lesson.
Mood totally ruined.
I felt like crying loh seriously :/
I was listening to what mr steve was talking but i couldn't catch what he's showing.
I copied down what he said but i guess i was just copying for the sake of it.
Ended up, i don't know how to do a single thing.
Even my friends who don't listen in class can do some of the steps their own.
Which is like, maybe common sense one? But not me.
I don't know, i am totally like a idiot blockhead.
When my another classmate told my another classmate that didn't you pay attention?
I was thinking in my heart that, i did hear what he's saying but i catch no ball.
Does it mean that i don't pay attention too?
Frigging down loh that time.
Make me like having a black face when i was having cca meeting. -.-
Cause my mood was spoilt.
Then i went to the toilet, think and think.
I don't feel like doing my animatics alrdy.
Why can't i have a positive mindset?
But. I don't wna dissapoint ms sherlyn.
I know in class, nobody wil be there keep helping you.
Like me, i know i am annoying sometimes cause i keep asking friend's question.
Like almost every single step. Fuke. I know they do get annoyed by me too and don't wna tell me. I pissed some of my friends of before cause i was just too slow.
Many times i felt like giving up.. but.
Contradictions.
(sigh)
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Fuck, i wokeup late.
& i missed the first lesson, mr jovi's lesson! Wtf.
Why am i always over sleeping! -.- DammIt.
Shit lah, later after school still have cca meeting :/
My animatics, i guess i don't have to sleep tonight alrdy? ):
I super fugging want sleep can.
I want to have hours and hours continuous of sleep.
Like maybe 15 or 16 hours or more then that of sleep.
Say me crazy but i really need that amount of sleep.
My skin is like, if i don't sleep for one day pimples will pop out ALOT.
And then swollen.
People don't know will think i never wash face?
I wash face everyday one man people.
I don't want pimples too. But my skin is like that, so sensitive.
If i sleep alot for one day, next day my skin will be better.
Sounds stupid but true.
Don't believe? Nevermind. It's my skin. It's like that.
I think my pimples forvever will be like that in this course.
Memories can never be forgotten.
Be it good/ bad, happy/ unhappy.
I can forgive but can never ever forget.
Sometimes, it might be a little too hard for me to forgive.
People say i am soft hearted, but that's not always.
Not everytime.
People say they seldom see me really angry before.
But wait, do you people really want to see?
I don't think so, i think you people will regret after seeing it.
I can say, i've never, haven't really throw big temper in front of anyone before in poly.
You might think you've seen it before, how angry i am.
But no, i know it myself.
I haven't really show HOW REAL ANGRY I CAN BE.
You people will never wanna see it.
I can tolerate.
I am trying to.
I'm those who tolerate and suddenly one fine day, i can just bomb in front of you & you die.
And you will fuck off in front of me.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Ms sherlyn gave us watch the show about global warming and the graphics the person used in the show. It's like 2 hrs? & Woah you know i didn't sleep! Almost like all the people fall asleep loh. I find the show really interesting. Idk why man.
It's the first time i didn't fall asleep & eyes were so damm big.
Anyway i deleted the post i wrote when i was in class studio :/
Lol, update, just now when i went to cca workshop with venalie & peiru.
Hahaha, didn't know my aunt, agnes was there for the talk too.
She talked about the financial things for SAO office.
I think in the future i would see my aunt agnes often :)
Fun. Bonding with different people in diff cca.
And what, babes and hunks? Yo! We're team nyp! So funny lah.
I will regret if i don't go. At least, i laughed alot when i was there (:
Ohyah saw sharifah (: guess she's the vice of fb.
I want t go to the youth olympics! HAHAHA.
Aiyah, people who read my post which was deleted just now. Forget everything :/
It's all about my parents & aunt saying that i spend too much time for school things.
Like cca, & stuffs. Spending very little time on 'em.
& That the most impt is, i am mentally tired bec of schwork.
Tired till that extend that i don't even feel like going shopping or whatever.
It's seriously draining me out cause i can even sleep while playing with my niece.
Okay, nvm. Ohyeah tired now too.
But, can't sleep. Still have animatics.
My aunt asked me to go out and work, don't study. -.-
Trying to be funny.
OHOH! I am happy cause my information posters from Grade F to Grade B! (:
Ms sherlyn wrote there, great improvement!
I don't care if people said mine looks like other's work or whatever.
Cause, i didn't copy.
Okay, zzzzzz. Tired.
Nnnnnnnnnna;
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I just went to my old blog and realised some stupid people tagged there.
Somemore, that person tag like this.
Michellesucks: Hi talk to my butt, talk to my ass HAHAHAHA.
Hello people, stop being so childish leh.
Michellesucks? Michelle who?
I got alot of friends named michelle leh.
Dumbo, stupid people with no brains.
Want tag also tag clearer lah. Idiot.
* Edited, 5pm.
I like her singing!
Jingyee told me she read philosophy books so the songs she write people seldom understands.
Ohyeah didn't blog yesterday.
Dance at aerobics room ytd, & i left my lappy inside! Holyshit.
Then i went to my saviour's house to do work.
Thankyou man, my saviour.
Lol. I know, the best person in this world lololol -.-
Got back my lappy today! (:
Went to gym today to go take, the person in gym say dance till forget uh.
HAHAHA.
I don't like people who link my studies to dance.
I SAY I DON'T LIKE.
So stop it man people.
I seriously hate people who ridiculous-ly link it to my cca.
I don't care whether you're my mum, aunt, best friend or whoever.
Don't like the way you people say things means DON'T LIKE.
& That's it. Simple & clear enough to understand (:
End this post with this pickkkture.
nnnnnna;
Monday, May 11, 2009
OMG SHE'S HOT. Yeah?
The more you look at this actress the more you will find her hot man.
Didn't know till jasmine told me this actress.
Was finding a pic of model for the poster thingy.
Changed blogskin.
Am at home now. Slept at 5 plus in the morning ):
After i finish my typo work, couldn't go to sleep.
Still feeling unwell. Wokeup late! That's it :/
Send kenneth my work to help me hand in.
Don't need present today cause i am not there ;/
I have MC though.
Going school later still for 2d lesson.
I wanted to go back to sleep for awhile still cause am going for 2nd lesson.
But, couldn't go back to sleep ):
So spend this time doing stupid things which is changing my blogskin.
Dance later on, i wonder if i have the energy to dance.
These few days only ate like 1 meal in a day.
1 day ago, it was worst and i ate like one rotiprata for the whole day.
Feel sick & don't feel like eating anything.
Not until yesterday, i started to eat something.
I wished doctor's medicine is like magic.
I want to make pretty pretty blueberry muffins.
(:
p/s; No matter what happen, everyone has to move on with life.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Went to see doctor today.
Didn't went church today cause i was still feeling sick.
Anyway these few days, i feel like i am dying.
That day when my whole body felt numb, i was like really thinking,
Shit, i cannot move, why what happen, am i dying? My life just stop here like this?
I know i am crazy. I know i sound ridiculous. I KNOW.
BUT, That was really what came into my mind AT THAT TIME.
I really couldn't move at all at that time.
& i forced myself to sit up, suddenly i just sit up & that feeling is like..
You are drowned and someone just save you up.
I feel like crying .......
I remember when i stayed at CCK, there's a few times too...
But that was when my face facing at my pillow.
And i couldn't turn around and breathe. Just couldn't move.
But now a few days ago, that was worst.
I really got that feeling like i am on the verge of dying.
Stupid, i know....
Saturday, May 9, 2009
I am still so tired....... after fourteen frigging hours of sleep.
I slept for 14 hours and still feel tired. Whole body aching.
Sick yet still have to do work at home, alone.
My family went sembawang park to find my aunt.
Not only sick and couldn't go out, still have to face my laptop at home to do work.
What kind of shit is this, i don't even have the mood to do work now.
I don't have appetite, feel like sleeping still.....
Stomach ache, headache, neck pain, everywhere pain...
Everywhere you go, headache want to follow..
Who you are.. Where you come from..
Damm, i am bored...
Fuckfuckfuckfuckkkkkkkk.
I cannot breathe just now.
i was alrdy halfway into sleep, suddenly like whole body cannot move, numb and i cannot breathe.
Like going to die that kind of feeling.
Suddenly force myself to sit up, like gng to faint X_X
Friday, May 8, 2009
I don't feel well. My eyes are aching and frigging hot.
I can barely open my eyes now. Fucking tired.
I feel like fainting now. Headache is killing me now. ):
Slept for like 3 hours only this few days.
Went school early today again to render my video.
& After effects died on me.
My friends helped me but it don't work.
My presentation didn't go well at all.
Though i did push myself t do, really.
YT just say he will suspend the comments, something's missing.
Like. wtf, i really did and is not like i do in fucking few hrs only right. And what i got is that leh.
I still have that bit of motivation though after today's...
I am still motivated to do my other works.
I guess lecturers must be again dissapointed in me.
But, hey today's presentation ALOT people didn't come and present.
Alot of people are sick of it and gave up alrdy.
I can't giveup, can i?
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Was looking at jasmine's blog, kope 2 pics.
HAHAHHA! I think it's mr steve's class? randy & guixin did this.
LOL pathetic the small boy.
The green eye brown i make one side! LOL.
# Reminiscent.
Going school today morning is like for nothing.
9.30 am, & ms sherlyn came in to mark attendance.
I thought it was e learning before mr jovi's lesson today but ended up it's mr jovi's lesson in the morning. Teaching After Effects Tracking etc.
Mr jovi's quite nice i think :) Reminds me of Mr James.
Then till like noon, his lesson ended.
Went put smth at cca borad and went northpoint to eat w/ guixin.
Aunt's house after that and homed.
Mum's at home today. She's on leave half day cause grandma went malayisa.
Nobody wake me up now in the morning loh :/ I asked like so many people to wake me up.
Mum's not working tml too, she take leave. I asked her to help me go Np buy thumbdrive ltr :/
My harddisk cannot fit to mac book. Not suitable. Sigh I bought it for nothing and it's so frigging expensive. FOR NOTHING. & i am using my frigging small gb thumbdrive that's not enough for me. I am lazy to go np to buy later, haven't finish my schwork.
Ask mum to buy :/
Facebook's quiz is so fun. I made my own quiz. People, go do! HAHAH. I did randy's one and i got 100% CAN! So easy. Mine randy & guixin got only like 60+% LOL.
I miss..
No one. I am kidding.
HAHAHA/ Bye.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
What schwork do we have now..
I can think of..
Got typography the making of 15 sec clip opening tittle..
Got the after effects popcorn thing for 2d..
Haven't redo finish the information posters..
Professional finishing the poster..
Integraded assignment..
I cannot even find the right video.. How am i going to continue to do.
Friday, i am sure gonna die.
Why do i still think of it, randomly?
Who's gonna make me forget it like, TOTALLY?
SCHOOL IS FRIGGING TIRING.
SCHOOLWORK IS FLOODING ME LIKE FUCK.
Now we have screening every 2 times in school.
Walk through the thing, auto can see if we got fever.
Scan alrdy take sticker & scan our admin card. Wah awesome eh.
If only i could be as happy as my goddughter.
Seriously so tired. First time i felt so tired and stress.
And that stresss, is like.. Not that stress i felt the last sememster. It just feels abit different.
I cannot fail any modules this sememster already else i would retain.
I already failed 2 last sememster. First time hear me so afraid of failing eh?./
I really want to do well in my modules now but i cannot help stressing myself and thinking alot when all those modules had something to do with After Effects. My big enemy. The moment i hear of AE and video whatever shit, i am really fucking scared ):
Typo ended up need to do in AE. At first when teacher's comment on my work wasn't that bad & it gave me motivation i don't deny. Ended up lecturers say those things must do in After effects etc. My heart IMMEDIATELY SANK. First thought is, WAH SIAN ):
& i really don't want to dissapoint ms sherlyn. How i hope she knows i am thinking this way.
She's now the one who see me cry before -.- IN POLY. & she knows i hate AE & 3D etc.
I don't want her to feel like i already don't like mgbd and i still don't wna push myself.
I don't want her to see me like so useless. I know she confirm think i am someone who gives up easily and etc. I don't want people to think that way.
Suddenly after that day when i went to find her, i found that she's quite nice actually.
Not what i always thought before..
& i don't wna dissapoint my mum again.
But i am really very tired! I am not doing the things i like now yet i am pushing myself to like.
I am forcing myself. I'm not like other classmates, at least they looks so interested in watching those clips people do. I look already is like, Oh... ONLY ):
I feel like sleeping. For hours. More then 10 hours straight.
I AM VERY TIRED AH......... have been sleeping like 3 hrs that day only ):
): So many schwork.. Like never ending.
Flooding us. Like nobody's business.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
#Nothing is real for me.
My card design.
I am in class now, feeling so tired. (sigh)
& it's Professional finishing lesson now. I finally do finish my card design too.
Next week onwards it will be after effects again ): WTF, 2d also AE, this also soon AE.
I reached home like 12 plus yesterday, bathed and re-do my ecard design till like 2 plus? then fall asleep. I knew i would fall asleep ): & i wokeup at 5 plus continue to do my work.
Shait man, how many hrs i slept? SHAG CAN.
I wokeup with massive headache and my neck and everywhere aches.
Then i called my dad to fetch me to school.
During Modern and pop culture lesson when we were watching the 30 mins clip, i fall asleep.
I can barely open my eyes. I am really very tired.
But i am really trying very hard now to do my schwork.
I dislike your attitude.
It sucks like fuck.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Okay, i just reached home.
After school having cca welcome party for new batch of juniors till quite late.
I haven't do mjy card design! shait :/ tml need hand in.
Okay, today's typo lesson got pin up our works.
& then my comments given by teacher wasn't bad :)
Okay still can improve but at least there's some nice comments which can motivate me.
But now, i am afraid i will dissapoint ms sherlyn and other teachers.
I alrdy tell myself i must do well since i got no choice alrdy.
BUT THEN, REALLY sometimes i am lost in the world of MGBD. Sigh.
I seriously paid attention today during 2d lesson.
I still went in front to sit so that i can see what mr jovi teached.
My usual place was behind, the door there & apparently i cannot see anything :/
OKAYOKAY, I AM VERY TIRED NOW. EXHAUSTED.
I seriously pray i won't fall asleep later on. Gonna go bath first.
Felt like eating banana just when i stepped into my house.
And i just ate one.
Bye.
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KONRAD!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Seriously fuck man.
I finally finished my typography.
& i dont rmb anyone telling me there's the name & tv logo.
Somemore when i asked about typo work! FUCK FUCK FUCK MAN.
WHEN I WAS ABSENT THAT DAY.
Fuck can. If it's not yixin who remind me, i cofirm die tml in typo lesson.
WTF, super angry.
I must thanks yixin too for helping me to print.
She waited for so long for me to send her, and i keep awhile file size wrong awhile something missing awhile this and that.
Super guilty :/ must thanks her.
My goddaughter is at my house now :)
Feline is so cute right, i know :) HAHAHA.
In the morning, i was still sleeping when she came my house into my room shouting,
Godma godma godma. LOL.
My mum, cousin, brother they all went eat.
Feline keep asking me to wake, but i was so sleepy that i could barely open my eyes -.-
OH my cousin bought the thing to lech her. Lech? I don't know how spell :/
Like a dog bag, feline will carry and there's something to it for my cousin to hold.
Making her like dog like that -.- LOL.
Okay So they went eat and i continue sleeping alone at home.
After i wakeup, is 12 pm already. Bathed and went church.
Woah i didn't sleep in church today you know! :/ Didn't fall asleep.
Mum was shock too, cause she said everytime i will knock out during the bible study.
After church the pastor so cute loh, he talked to me. Oh he rmb-ed my name! :D
Then i saw a sick women? Cause today we got SHENG CAN, then the woman went in front and i think she was sick she wanted the pastor to help her pray. But pastor missed her i guess, he didn't saw her? Then when the church was about to end, all the way she's standing. When everyone was sitting. She look very ke lian :/
Must help sick people in this world to pray.
:)
Saturday, May 2, 2009
I am at home now :) Lying on my bed, feel like sleeping -.-
Had dance in school from morning till evening.
Morning was the 3rd audition till noon. Angela came back again for audition! So happy :)
Ate and everyone went blockE. I saw mr james at mac! HAHAHA :)
I didnt saw him, he said hello to me and i was like, eh. OH! LOL. Mr James wore in a casual way today that i don't even recongnise him :/ Super funny today.
Monday is konrad's birthday and they kind of celebrate earlier.
We were trying out playing the welcome party's games. There's one last game we played, we purposely ask him to stand at the end.
It's the game whereby we stand in a row, and the game master would read out a sentence to the first person, softly. And the first person would base on her memory, read out what she remember to the next person. And this goes on. So no matter how you play, the last person confirm won't read out the correct sentence cause it's passes here and there. And so the last person confirm need to have forfit. So our cca's president have that forfit! They tied something to cover his eyes, and we played a music asking him to dance. OMFG so funny lah :/
Then we slowly let him sit down and gave him one mouth of muffin.
What's Best is THEY SRINKLE SALT & PEPPER ONTO ONE OF THE MUFFINS. LOL!
And at first he thought they were giving him eat some kind of dust thingy or whatever that he wanted to spit it out. Like so super hilarious :/!
Then after that, everybody sang birthday song and asked him to finish the SALTY AND PEPPER-LY PART OF MUFFIN. I guess this must be a super big surprise for him.
Nobody would go sprinkle salt and pepper on muffins buh? LOL!
ANYWAY, i destroyed the sentence hahaha! As in, the people in front of me still rmb quite ok, but up till me, the sentence become you know what?!
I pass on to the next person,
'' tony and _____(forgot what name) went to the market to BUY their mother but they cannot find''.
Anyway the games is fun loh, got one game is like you must say 'i like people who..'
So there's once, someone said i like people who have clips on their hair. So you must run and find a sit. At that time i was like, TOUCHING MY HAIR FOR SO LONG WONDERING IF THERE'S ANY CLIP ON MY HAIR -.- STUPID. LOL. Ended up, i got no sit alrdy. HAHA.
So yeah after all these, we had rehearsal for the welcome party dance.
Most of them are going to S & G to dance. I need to go back to take care niece.
Then yeah, went back to look for my goddaughter.
Just nice she is alrdy coming down frm my house-.-, and i was about to go up.
I saw her and ran to her(in a funny way), purposely. And she ran to me and hug me.
She's so super sweet and cute :) 2 years old and she know alot of things already.
I am looking forward to monday's welcome party.
Feeling so tired now, wondering if i wil fall asleep later on, haven't even finish my whole lot of schwork. & somemore i wanna watch tv later on :/
-.-
Friday, May 1, 2009
# At random times, it still appear in my brain.
Initially today there's outing planned by konrad & venalie but i am going to see popo(she eye operation finished). & going bugis to buy cca welcome party things so i not going.
But anyway the outing is cancelled cause i think most of the people couldn't make it.
So, today i wokeup at 11am plus & mummy acc-ed me to bugis village.
Ended up i stayed in the shop searching things for quite a long time till mummy was angry.
She went seperate ways with me, shopping her own things.
Went to see popo after that for just awhile and went back home to do my typo schwork.
I still have alot schwork to be done, shit can.
Just now, i spend 1 hour doing the 'W' for typo.
WTF, 1 hour can. But still, the W didn't end up very nice. Still like shit.
Really make me wna scold WHAT THE FUCK.
I think mr eric & mr raymond sure would give me a big scolding if they saw my 'W'.
& maybe so many other letters i did too. Or maybe all @.@!
I still got so many letters to do! Frigging shit lah hokay.
I am planning to redo my information design posters, but i don't think i have the time now?
But cannot sia, no matter what i also must redo. 2 leh, how am i gonna do? ):
How about my card design? I must do tomorrow.
& the after effects ball thingy, that day i don't even know there's this work needed to be handed in. WTF right i know. I'm so dumb. Whatever words use to describe stupid people, you can use.
& YES, INTEGRADED ASSIGNMENT, i don't understand a single shit :/ !!!!!!!!
Okay, maybe a little. But still very confused what i should do for next week's presentation :( !!!
Yesterday night, was so tired that i think i fall asleep at like 11pm?!
I hope today i won't :/ Else my schwork will FOREVER NEVER BE DONE.
Anywayyys, everybody is like saying about the new flu? Which is more serious then SARS.
To me, i think it's fate.
If you are fated to get it, you will, no matter how you avoid.
Is like, if you're fated to die, maybe you won't get it today but maybe tml something will happen and you will die. Everything is fated.
Not that i siao or what saying about death, but to me i think, my life is like god's.
He will decide everyone's life. That's what.. I think.
HAHAHAH, Sounds abit crazy, aiyah. :/
Okay, goodbye!