Wednesday, May 6, 2009
SCHOOL IS FRIGGING TIRING.
SCHOOLWORK IS FLOODING ME LIKE FUCK.

Now we have screening every 2 times in school.
Walk through the thing, auto can see if we got fever.
Scan alrdy take sticker & scan our admin card. Wah awesome eh.

If only i could be as happy as my goddughter.
Seriously so tired. First time i felt so tired and stress.
And that stresss, is like.. Not that stress i felt the last sememster. It just feels abit different.
I cannot fail any modules this sememster already else i would retain.
I already failed 2 last sememster. First time hear me so afraid of failing eh?./
I really want to do well in my modules now but i cannot help stressing myself and thinking alot when all those modules had something to do with After Effects. My big enemy. The moment i hear of AE and video whatever shit, i am really fucking scared ):
Typo ended up need to do in AE. At first when teacher's comment on my work wasn't that bad & it gave me motivation i don't deny. Ended up lecturers say those things must do in After effects etc. My heart IMMEDIATELY SANK. First thought is, WAH SIAN ):
& i really don't want to dissapoint ms sherlyn. How i hope she knows i am thinking this way.
She's now the one who see me cry before -.- IN POLY. & she knows i hate AE & 3D etc.
I don't want her to feel like i already don't like mgbd and i still don't wna push myself.
I don't want her to see me like so useless. I know she confirm think i am someone who gives up easily and etc. I don't want people to think that way.
Suddenly after that day when i went to find her, i found that she's quite nice actually.
Not what i always thought before..
& i don't wna dissapoint my mum again.
But i am really very tired! I am not doing the things i like now yet i am pushing myself to like.
I am forcing myself. I'm not like other classmates, at least they looks so interested in watching those clips people do. I look already is like, Oh... ONLY ):
I feel like sleeping. For hours. More then 10 hours straight.
I AM VERY TIRED AH......... have been sleeping like 3 hrs that day only ):
): So many schwork.. Like never ending.
Flooding us. Like nobody's business.
