Sunday, May 10, 2009
Went to see doctor today.
Didn't went church today cause i was still feeling sick.
Anyway these few days, i feel like i am dying.
That day when my whole body felt numb, i was like really thinking,
Shit, i cannot move, why what happen, am i dying? My life just stop here like this?
I know i am crazy. I know i sound ridiculous. I KNOW.
BUT, That was really what came into my mind AT THAT TIME.
I really couldn't move at all at that time.
& i forced myself to sit up, suddenly i just sit up & that feeling is like..
You are drowned and someone just save you up.
I feel like crying .......
I remember when i stayed at CCK, there's a few times too...
But that was when my face facing at my pillow.
And i couldn't turn around and breathe. Just couldn't move.
But now a few days ago, that was worst.
I really got that feeling like i am on the verge of dying.
Stupid, i know....